shall go relisten to the deadlock series again, yes, the 3rd time in 2 days. after alkenes tutorial, that is. yasumoto hiroki's wonderful + sexy voice cant seem to leave my head. espiecially when he was whispering sweet nothings into yuuto's ear.
完璧な恋人なんて、どこにもいやしないよ。 そう、ロッブも言っていた、運命の相手は出会うではなく、自分で決める物だって。理想を求めず、相手を決めたらとことん好きになる。百人を愛するより、人を百年愛する方が、ずっと素晴らしい。 there is no such thing as a perfect partner. yes, it is just as rob said, you dont meet the person you are fated to be with; you actually decide for yourself who that person will be. after deciding, you will like the person till the very end, without any ideals. that's why it is a more wonderful thing to love a person for 100 years than to love a 100 people.
-- yuuto's reflections, from DEADLOCK III - DEADSHOT.
have always believed in this. was actually quite surprised when the drama put it in words for me. though my translation's abit awkard, i hope i actually put forth its meaning properly in english haha.
そうか、あの時、オレが勝手に決めただけなんだね。今は決めた事を後悔しているのかなあ。
anyway. i think i died of happiness myself when dick and yuuto finally finally finally could get together for real at end of the drama. when their relationship was so fraught with huge obstacles (like the clashes between the CIA and FBI) and unfortunate positions they found themselves in throughout the entire course of 3 dramas. and seriously, i could go on and on, but i need to catch up on sleep i lost last night listening to it.
so good night, XD. will write a full review and translate a few tracks when i have the mental strength to do so.
played with the nus team against the j1 guys today.
yes, alone, cos all the other fb j1s panged me haha. went, 1) because i will never pass on training with a coach, and 2) thought it was just regular training, not a match.
so it was essentially my first floorball match as a stick player haha.
good for me, cos this experience told me that i really sucked. as in really really really. (i wouldnt use the word hopeless, because i am currently overflowing with hope to not suck one day)
had no idea where to be at in court, let the ball pass through me dunno how many times, missed the ball dunno how many times, lost almost every ball that was passed to me, had only one attempt at the goal (shot was far off target), got shouted at when i didnt know what to do, didnt even understand the instructions that were shouted at me. fell many times, now my ankle isnt quite right. the most disgusting thing was that i was damn tired after all that. and that no matter how hard i ran i couldnt outrun the guys. after all the PTs every morning, sigh..
trying my best wasnt enough. everything isnt enough, ball control, strength, fitnesse.. how much time do i have till next year's nationals?? how much time do i have till we play against RJ? i look myself and despair haha. have such a long way to go.
okay i think my worries are abit misplaced. promos are in 3 weeks time and i havent started revision. have to mug mug mug.
went to the natsu matsuri (summer festival) at the japanese school in the evening after that. had alot of fun, really. place was overflowing with japanese families with uber cute japanese kids in yukata. had genuine japanese food. had chances to converse in japanese with native japanese. had the chance to participate in the bon odori dance after that. did some sort of reunion with liu and zanne.
well, i cant ask for more. XDDD
but i became behind in my schedule in terms of tutorials. so after this, tonight will be mug mug mug and nothing else.
was surfing youtube following an urge to see Kamui Gackt again.
Gackt! probably the only Jrock artiste that i'll go kyakya over. remember, this guy is singing live. you can imagine how much better he sounds in his prerecorded songs. seriously in love with his deep powerful voice haha XD.
one day, i'll make sure i actually buy his albums, instead of clicking on his pvs one by one to listen to his voice *_*
was watching all his appearances on domoto kyoudai's variety shows. i dont know how he can manage to be cool, cute, funny, and at the same time not attituded and not diva-ish. he can smile even when he's embarassed by some impertinent host. he totally owns JE haha. no one in JE can compete with him XDDDD
these are typical Jrockers, unlike Gackt, (Gackt probably stands on the fine line between respectable Jpop and J rock). their piercings and tattoos dont impress me, but kai's (guy being kissed) smile happen to dazzle me abit, so his video's here haha.
i dont know why njc wanted us to 'evaluate means testing for healthcare in singapore' as an econs VA topic, maybe to get us to read some of the benefits of this policy and at the same time influence our mindsets so that we will think that means testing is fair, good, and the best solution?
hahaha.ironic.
went online, read comments on the issue and was quite surprised at how singaporeans can be so vehement in their criticism. you should read some comments and articles on means testing in forums. whew. almost all the comments i read were either grudgingly neutral or downright vicious. and that's not just one website. i'm talking about almost all websites i visited. am surprised that i'm surprised. after all, the government seemed like some golden infallible existence, after the way our social studies textbook sang joyful paen after joyful paen of their wondrous achievements. like, say something against their policies and you'll be struck by lightning hahaha.
so much for singaporeans not being interested in politics, they sure get very interested when it involves their monies, espiecially when it might constitute to them losing their monies.
still, i dont see any protests or demonstrations? mr goh was right, singaporeans generally (i repeat, generally) do not have backbones. a nice way to say it is that singaporeans are peace loving. *grin* so although the starhub cables might be full of their complaints and threats to ditch PAP in the next GE yada yada yada, i bet my chocolate donut that they'll still vote for PAP in the end. though i think the percentages are slipping?? ooooops.
so you see, erena katou's 'saudade' wasnt the pushing factor that got me to like tango and spanish style music. i think it was ricky martin at work a long time ago.
a reason why the next language i'll learn after japanese is spanish.
maybe i would, if i pass JLPT 1 next year, and after i get a black belt.
zhang yining X li jiawei now, am watching them try to kill each other on tv.
hard to say who i want to win, since zhang yining used to be my idol last time, when i saw her signature stone expression turn into a wonderful smile the instant she won her second olympic gold 4 years ago. even till now i can remember that smile well enough to picture it in my head haha.
i feel that itch to pick up the table tennis bat again, feel the heavy wood against my palm.
seem to feel i've been drinking alot of beer lately. half a litre of heineken last week, 2 tall mugs of golden ale at brewerkz today. beer at brewerkz is damn nice but also damn ex. so i probably wont get another chance to taste golden ale until, maybe next year.
ah, about colours awards ceremony, i dont have the pictures. will put them up when i get them. we made alot of noise, laughed alot, did stupid things and laughed even more, took lots of photos. rushed about like siao ding dongs to get dressed up properly in time to be there at 6pm. arrived to find that we were one of the earliest.
when it comes to sports, i've always thought that there wasnt any limit to what we could do. after all, table tennis hardly got too physical.
am beginning to see my physical limitations. am getting seriously annoyed with them.
but he has shown me that that limitations are meant to be overcome.
so i shall choose to believe you, but perhaps it'll just take abit longer for someone of my calibre.
which is all i remembered from my stormy thoughts this morning after having to sit out of physical trng today for the second time, due to two stupid shins which wouldnt heal.
...I want to walk with you On a cloudy day In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high So won't you try to come
Come away with me and we'll kiss On a mountaintop Come away with me And I'll never stop loving you
And I want to wake up with the rain Falling on a tin roof While I'm safe there in your arms So all I ask is for you To come away with me in the night Come away with me
got dragged to the salon today, because my last haircut was in february. i dont know what on earth my mom told the hairdresser to do despite my protests, but the outcome was quite horrendous. i think you cant imagine what freak from which planet emerged. they were blaming each other for the mess they made. at least gor was the only one who was tactful enough to say in my face that it looks terrible and i should wait till it grows out again. went back home and washed my hair a grand total of 5 times to get out all the disgusting oils and creams and whatever hair shit that were rubbed into my hair. still i cant get all of the sickening saccharine smell out of it. makes me want to heave my lunch from my stomach. :/
knock knock knock knock. can you even hear me? perhaps you'll like to lend a ear to whether i want my bangs cut this way before you just go ahead and do it? what an overwhelming sense of deja vu, somehow i have strong memories of getting ignored everytime i expressed an opinion. or maybe whenever i say something, i suddenly magically disappear. unseen, unheard, unfelt. can you hear the sarcasm dripping from my voice?
i'm sure you know this, but i'm already quite unattractive already you know. i can kneel in front of you and plead with you, stop making me uglier than i already am.
feel like shouting out every japanese expletive i know. how can mere words express the anger in me now? i dont want to go to school tml. i dont even want to think of the colours award ceremony this friday.
looking forward to the extra large shot of baileys i'll pour for myself on friday.
though i'll be drinking alone at home while my parents enjoy house brewed beer somewhere else. while er ge goes on a date with his girlfriend. while da ge goes on a date with his floorball.
退屈な毎日が急に輝きだした my daily life, which was filled with boredom, suddenly begun to shine. あなたが現れたあの日から since the day you appeared. 孤独でも辛くても平気だと思えた and i was able to think that even when i'm lonely or suffering, i'll be alright.
--prisoner of love, by utada hikaru
updated my other blog. felt less cheerful. went to do some work. watched バーテンダー bartender ep1 on youtube, going to do some more work again.
looking forward to tomorrow. going for some floorball meeting in the morning, hopefully can rush to PW meeting after that. then CIP at this NDP event. busy day. jam packed full of activities to take my mind off what i'm mulling about now.
