les miserables
時々、不安が込み上げてくる。
いいキーパーになれるかどうか。来年、役に立つだろうか。
それが頭に一杯で、情の事を深く考えなくなったんだ。
失敗するたび、膝が痛くても、心がもっと痛むから。
強がりたくて、息ができない。
苦しい。
めちゃくちゃだ。
still feel like shit when i concede shots. thought that i had dealt with this a long time ago, but i'm having trouble swallowing my fear of letting down the team. and i still dont know how i'm supposed to look intimidating, when i'm just a small black blob (albeit with an oversized helmet) in front of the goal.
plus all the worrying for the stickplayers in the team, well. i've dreamt floorball for the past 4 consecutive days, for a reason.
as for monday, i'm still utterly ashamed. very thankful that not many people saw, and that the helmet shielded my face most of the time.
didnt have strength to hold back the tears.
いいキーパーになれるかどうか。来年、役に立つだろうか。
それが頭に一杯で、情の事を深く考えなくなったんだ。
失敗するたび、膝が痛くても、心がもっと痛むから。
強がりたくて、息ができない。
苦しい。
めちゃくちゃだ。
still feel like shit when i concede shots. thought that i had dealt with this a long time ago, but i'm having trouble swallowing my fear of letting down the team. and i still dont know how i'm supposed to look intimidating, when i'm just a small black blob (albeit with an oversized helmet) in front of the goal.
plus all the worrying for the stickplayers in the team, well. i've dreamt floorball for the past 4 consecutive days, for a reason.
as for monday, i'm still utterly ashamed. very thankful that not many people saw, and that the helmet shielded my face most of the time.
didnt have strength to hold back the tears.
